it's a satrday without u, and tomorrow's a snday.
:(
for three weeks.

i don't understand myself. at some point i'd be so happy and less bothered about the absence but at some other time, i'm just so depressed that i hate myself.

first and second papers on this tuesday! woo! can't wait.
really. because the more papers i finished, the faster it is time flies till you're back again.
as of today, it's 15 days till the 6th of december.

happy mugging, muggers!
and those of you who are done with exams.. er.. good for you. :)

bahhh. i hate european history.
and i totally made a mistake while choosing my exposure modules. now, i've to do one more in semesters to come. and i thought i could be contented with no more exp modules.

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everything reminds me of you.
are you my everything?

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a sociological entry (HAHA)

is gaining excessive weight an act of deviance? the society focuses so much on having a healthy lifestyle that it encompasses the minds to think that "being fat" or gaining a few kilos to make one seem bigger than usual, is a form of a deviant act because it deviates from how the norm is supposed to be. Being normal in this sense is to have an ideal body, being healthy with the right BMI. If gaining weight itself is already quite worrying for one, gaining excessive weight would be a greater worry as it deviates greatly from the norm.

Using a functionalist perspective, gaining weight has its function that would help the society greatly. It promotes healthy living because as one realises the need to lose weight, he/she would be highly motivated to exercise and eat healthy - lead a healthy lifestyle. Ergo, in this sense, "gaining weight" is a "blessing in disguise" because if one does not feel fat, he/she would continue to eat and not exercise, perhaps, as regularly as he/she should.

However, a conflict theory would argue that since these people who have "gained weight" are already being labelled as not skinny or "unhealthy" by the media (directly and indirectly), they find less greater need to actually flush out the unhealthiness in them, and hence they continue to behave that way causing them to deviate greater.

Then again, if this breaking of the norm BECOMES a norm, can it still be called an act of deviance?




HEEHEE. i have been studying y'all! but only for one particular module: SC1101E. so fun ah. so fun that i dont feel like studying other subjects (read European history) >:(
anyway that thing i wrote above is not an official question la, but i suddenly thought of it when i came back from jogging just now cos well, i realised i finally FINALLY jogged when i feel EXTREMELY FAT AND BLUBBERISH. gaahh...

and i miss my dearest helmo. :( so much.
yesterday on the bus, a stupid person's phone rang, "LA LA LA LA, LA LA LA LA, ELMO'S WORLD..." grrr.
then in the library, there was a lovey dovey couple that made me highly jealous can
but Tasha convinced me that there's nothing to be jealous of PRC couple. i secretly feel they're local. BUT THEY'RE STILL A LOVEY DOVEY COUPLE. bah.


i'm smelly. wanna eat instant kimchi noodles. so much for jogging. DEVIANCE. WAHAHA. bye!

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goodbye my lover.
hear from you again in 3 weeks time.
in the meantime, i shall bury myself in the studying materials and score my desired grades for the exams!
the content of the card was so beautiful it brought tears to my eyes, not that everyone's not used to that already.
i shall pray for your safety and well being always. <3




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bahhhhh i'm gonna let this out!
it's not that easy to suppress sadness for one whole freakin week!
after brushing away stupid misery for one whole week, i'm gonna let it out now. well, not everything, but the main thing that makes me freakingly annoyed for this one whole miserable day.

do you know how it feels like to be lousy? lousiness that can be avoided.
okay, i have my driving license right? i have a family car right?
but one annoying thing is, i'm always not allowed to drive because apparently i am not ready.
how ready do you want me to be? how can i ever be ready if you never even let me drive beyond the neighbourhood? i'm sorry, but YOU ARE SO UNREASONABLE. THIS IS SO UNFAIR. i might as well don't take my driving license yet and wait till i can afford to buy my own car cos you don't let me drive! it's unfair because ALL my friends with license can drive, like properly drive. while i am still suffering miserably in silence. i am still under-exposed. i become less confident because of you! why can't you be more encouraging like other people?????? i don't even know if i will ever succeed in anything cos you're always so not supportive about almost everything that i do. as much as you are my dad, i loathe your behaviour sometimes. gah.

eff this. i'm so emotionally wrecked today. my eyes are so tired of crying. i blame you for my moodless day today. UGH. @!#$%#^$*%#@%$@~@$@#$%#%!~&*(&(%^^##%%^*#$&!#

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my sister is so sweet. she said it makes her want to cry whenever she sees me sad. i pray that she'll get fantastic results for her O levels, Amin.

okay, late for school!

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Do you know that your text msg and your facebook status made me tear today?
I don't know why, perhaps it's because.. i keep thinking about how time is passing by.
but don't worry, i am as strong as can be! (i hope)

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Today marks the day of a very important lesson.

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depressed to the maximum. :'(

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Aku ingin engkau selalu
Hadir dan temani aku
Di setiap langkah
yang meyakiniku
Kau tercipta untukku

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why am i dreading school?
why don't i have the drive anymore?
hmm, i think it's because of the mad deadlines.
they're coming real fast!
and that means reading week's coming soon too, which would then mean syg's going to brunei :'( aaand EXAMS are coming.
on a lighter note, all these would also means HOLIDAYS are coming.
then again, there are things happening during the holidays too i think.. like, syg going to taiwan :'( :'( aand... hmm, maybe some mss matters?

okay but all those can wait. hmmm.. what about now?
i need to finish up my south asian essay due on friday, which happens to be the south asian test as well, WHICH happens to be THE day i start school at 8! -wails- i can already feel the tiredness now, just THINKING about leaving the house at 6.30am, and reaching home at probably 10pm the night before considering that there would be mss meeting the previous day at 6. :'(
just WHAT have i gotten myself into? this week will be the most rush-est week ever. i don't liiikkkeeeeeee!!!

anyway, yesterday, i spent the whole day with syg, and half the day with ruzaini when he joined us later that day.

went to esplanade to just chill, because somebody was in need of rest to recover from the "avian flu" symptoms. hahaha. ok nvm. i did a fair bit of reading my notes for the upcoming week's test! SIGH.




then we went to orchard cineleisure to catch 500 days of summer with ruzaini.
had our late lunch at anatolia!





oh damn, 10.49am. i need to finish up my essay by hmm.. 12pm! latest!

toodles!

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suddenly im overwhelmed with emotions.
i thought i can try to at least be strong, but deep inside, i'm weak. very weak.
i'm so disappointed in myself.
what happened to the sense of independence deep inside?
is it still there?
sigh. :'(

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helloo.
hello!
what you doing?
walking to my room.
oh, anyway, just wanna say good night, that's all.
okay, good night!
and i just wanna say that i'm so happy to see you today because i didn't expect that at all.
hehe yeah tu ah, "see you at causeway". i didn't expect it too..
oklah, dah lights out. good night!
good night!
love you syg.
bye.
love you.
OH love you too :)

oh man i can be so blur sometimes. :/
anyways, i was happy to see him too because this was what happened:

hey i'm going to causeway kejap. see you there!
huhhh im not going to causeway!
oh yes you are!
no im nottt... okla okla!
hey im not forcing u to go, it's up to you!
nah i need to check out the library anyways
what time can u reach?
half and hour's time! can you wait for me? ;)




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who blogsearch-ed madhiah and helmi on google?

anyhows, i am not in the very best of mood.
i'm sorry if my planning sucks and seem very fickle okay.
it's not easy. not easy at all.
but thanks so much if you've cooperated.

maaf zahir dan batin.

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